conspicious

Presence, unforgiving, piercing,
like a nail tracing itself down my neck,
buried deep in my flesh,
i feel the pain paralyse me,
to drag me back to living,
to tear open the eyelids 
disturb my rarely found sleep,
to unleash a trauma, to mystify me,
mesmerised I follow,
walk into a trap of the self,
where you reign supreme,
nothing but you can heal,
my heart crushed between truth and lies,
caught between the fire and ice,
i ask for release,
your thoughts entrenched deep,
cease my fight, ease my will, curb the desire,
to live, I give up, I fall into you,
your eyes, lost, forever.