A Stalemate: January 2005

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someone with a sweetest smile ,
like the innocence of a child,
That spawns a joy so strong,
Makes you forget were life went wrong,
Like a cool breeze on some summer sun,
Like a warm fire on some winter night,
Her is not the one who mistakes,
It is her, she is so by design,
Made with the utmost care,
Whom the creator witnessed and stood still,
Glaring over his creation,
How much of a difference she makes in lives.
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Kite
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I saw a kite float by my window,
gently it moved to rest on the tree beside,
I could reach out to touch it,
I looked pretty there fluttering on its own.
I watched it in the morning sun,
It sang in a tune so gently serene,
As the wind brushed its beautiful edges,
It seemed to dance in a joyful mood,
I found myself smiling.
I caught up with it, evening after my return,
From working, and working myself to despair,
It caught my eye, and gently swayed loose,
I caught it in my tired hands.
It's beauty overwhelmed my sadness,
The sentiment of company on a day like that,
I knew the moment shall soon pass by,
I let it freely float into the valley beside.
She looked pretty smiling, flying her own,
I watched her drift farther away,
Sad, but her joy contented me,
I just looked back one last time to catch her glimpse.
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I wish to stop, my mind is tied,
But it is tired of holding on,
I know, I'll pull it free,
But when i Leave, I'll be so much you.

To touch the cloud,to soak in it's blue,
To bask in the radiance of the morning sun,
I long,
It's been long since I went out of door.

My love for you is my own prison,
Traps me in insanity, I call feeling,
Each tick of te clock, I turn to look,
Maybe to catch a glimpse of you somewhere.

The heart has lost hope, it lies,
Feeling better, saying that is another,
My soul quetions, asks me to justify,
Why I chose to love you, I decline to debate.
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Don't Answer
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When I confessed into your eyes,
Did you blink?
When I saw you in the lounge that day,
Did you care to look back?
When I reached out my hand in pain,
Did your turn to hold it?
When I cried in thoughts of you,
Did you even think of me?

When the world left me behind,
I stood there to see you safe,
Watching from a distance,
The distance you wanted to keep.

You asked me to walk away,
I walked away,tearful and sad,
When you cut the bonds of knowing,
Did you hear my glass heart crack?

What went wrong I'll never know,
Maybe life took a 'U' turn somehow,
I'm back lone and sad,
Like her you stabbed my heart too.

I know what a stone heart you have,
I know how false your tears were,
I played along, played the fool,
I did, and will keep doing so for you,

All else being simple and short,
Just one more thing I ask,
One for the road, you may say,
When you left me today,
Did it hurt you,
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The Angel's flame.
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She seemed like a touch of mist,
Somewhere deep in the winter of my cold frosted mind,
I knew summer was here when I saw those eyes,
Little did I see the hell fire comming on,
So softly you whispered, your gentleness overwhelmed,
Dark was your heart, darker your mind,
Just to loosen my grip on reality,
I fell face first,fell in love,to my angel of darkness.
When you thought of me, did you see,
How you were reason enough for a change profound,
To kill the will of my gentle heart, Redemption I'll call it,
For you are my angel no matter what,canâ€™t blame you.
You left,alone, with my broken thoughts,
The ones i nurtured, hoping the darkness was a friend,
The familiar darkness made me forget a brightness called truth,
My realization now hangs in the balance of my love for you.
I look at you,play coy, watching me in broken symmetries,
Of everything that's tangible, when I saw only you,
The darkness in you draws me to you like a moth to the flame,
To perish in the flame of your darkness that I crave.
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Forsaken
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Lost winds that visited my garden yesterday,
They came when the moon hung sleepily on my window,
Where I sat Smoking my poison,
Searching a shade of bygones.

I knew the comming,
I had it comming,
I knew all I had was to go,
I just held on the fight.

I wished to survive, to live long enough to fight,
Not to win, Not to smile,
Just to be there and walk a while,
I knew those times are gone, lost.

Somewhere when the circles turned,
A swirl of smoke as I exhaled,
I saw a face there in that smoke,
I saw me bid farewell to my angst.
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I Do.
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When the sky is grey, when it rains
Do you look out our window to catch me in the rain drops?
Wen the sun sets do you feel the red and orange touch you
Do you feel them whispering how beautiful you are?
When the birds take flight, while you are watching them
Do you still smile like an innocent child?
When the river flows,singing along
Do you hear it telling you how I miss you?
When the trees swing in the gentle morning breeze
Do you see them yearning like me for your touch?
When the winds blow beside
Do you hear it call your name?
When the night is dark and the lights are out
Do you seek me to tell you it's alright?
When the sand, washed by the foam that washes ashore gets warm
Do you see it writing your name?
I know that I do, For I know that I love you,
Though you are far away, and only drifting further,
You grow in my heart.
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Endless Restart
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Velvet winds touch the water pool,
To disturb the calmness of the stilness,
Beneath which the turbulence lies,
To briefly touch and go.

The ripples reach the other shore,
Shore to shore the ripples wander,,
To end up into the calmness,
As though to seem Undisturbed.

The mind knows no boundary,
Of heartfelt and what is unknown,
To wait in cycles endlessly,
To arise again in thoughts anew.

Like life itself, my journey,
Away from me to some nowhere place,
To an augmented hyper reality,
To restart all over again.
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The fight within.
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The dust blows on an open road,
Set in wind, by someone who drove by,
To impair vision on the clear summer noon,
To mislead a traveller walking along.

Arid, unforgiving,sand, empty largely,
The road seems to stretch out to no end,
Like walking towards an obscure destination,
Blindly the traveller walks.

To reach out, to touch reality, we wish,
In our pseudo happiness we refrain,
To see what is real, what is true,
We lose focus moving along.

Hard to do, easier said,
A statement we beg to justify,
Till we see how far we have come,
To only regret the avoided visit of a garden.
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Close Conversations.
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Only once, I said, she declined,
Accepted said I,
Only ten, she said seven,
Accepted said I,
Only you I said, she refused,
Accepted said I,
Never again, said I, She refuted,
Denied said I,
What we are, Said I, Agreed said She,
Thanked her, I did,
23 long, ways to be broken, one to build,Said God,
Accepted said I,
They came, took me for dead,called me bad,
Accepted said I,
I awoke,cold sweat,heart hurt deep,
Accepted said I,
I'll know, the future and all that's unknown,
Accepted said I,
Bless you, Said God, Live in pain but, If for love,
Accepted said I,
He walked out, She turned,left, I walked out on myself,
Accepted said I.
For Friends come back, I called, I said to me,
Accepted said Me.
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Relevance
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A truth we ponder on,
A truth we think to justify,
A truth we fail to understand,
A truth we cannot deny,
A truth we beg was unquestionable,
A truth that disturbs at times,
A truth we seldom visit,
A truth we wish to live in sometimes,
A truth for the sorrowful soul,
A truth for the joyous heart,
A truth when the tears roll by,
A truth that makes the smile worthwhile,
A truth, which we miss when lost,
A truth we are happy to see most times,
A truth we joyously treasure,
A truth that makes a small hurt, a lot,
A truth I can never live without realizing,
A truth I love with all my heart,
A truth I know that's given to me,
The truth what is called life.
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Black
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An aura Of black,
Surrounds me, My mind, My heart,
Lost in shadows, of a fluttering lamp light,
To vanish, like the dying flame.

To look through the darkened window pane,
Into the pitch black night,
The distant howls of the night creatures,
And crickets that sing songs of loneliness.

Of the long vanished sun,
That brings me ho[e of another orange,
When I can see the whites fly,
In formation, togetherness.

I watch the moon, fade out,
Behind those silver clouds, now darker,
The ones that shone so silent,
To spin tales of lone, black as the night.
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In dreams
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Some old english country oak,
Shed a few dried out leaves,
They glide through the air, still,
Before they rest in a deafening silence,

Come touch my dreams,
Make me fly,
In his abundant nature's paradise,
Like a flower on the break of spring,
Cover my barren heart,Come once
Cover it with the green of your love,
For all I see, and all I feel,
Is so true it's surreal,
Whisper to me, bliss my ears,
That yearn to hear your voice, sweet,

Gentle like the first winter breeze,
Soft like the summer sunset on the beach,
Warm like the touch of the blue ocean,
where I wish you belong to me.
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Alive
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Amongst those silver clouds,
I wish to fly touch the gentle rain drops,
I wish to breathe,
I long for the scent of the first showers of the summer.

To catch the first sunset of the winter,
To stretch out my hand, to cover the sun,
In its gentle orange,
I long to be in those sun lit evening walks.

I wish to run bare feet,
on the sands, on some far away beach,
In its yellow and cream,
I long to see the clear blue sea in waves.

I wish to hear the birds call,
To wake me up, like they did when I was a child,
In sweet melodies of morning's arrival,
I long to live, To feel alive again.
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Omnipresent absence.
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I wish to sleep in her arms tonight,
And listen to the wind that blows,
Feel its cold and its eerie songs,
To lie still and hear it all.

To not move even an eyelid,
For I'd miss her eyes that haunt me,
Inviting, seductive and gentle over all,
I know she'll weave her spell on me.

I lived along knowing she exists,
I called out to her, she doesn't reply,
She sends me signs of coming towards,
I await her coming.

When she comes I'll wish to live,
But I know I'll want to walk with her,
Amongst those woods I strolled long ago,
Smelling the aroma of my childhood gardens.

I miss her more so ever tonight,
For all I know and all I wanted has left me behind,
Sorrow and despair are just words that can't explain,
What I feel deep in my heart tonight.

I still call her name and hold on to hope,
She'll come to visit, to hold my hand,
Then I'll yearn no more, nor shall sigh,
The passing hours of loneliness.

It shall end with her arrival,
Of all the feelings and thoughts,
Love, hatred, pain and joy, she'll erase,
She'll reap my soul from this body of mine,
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In Anything that Exists
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Drive a splinter through my heart,
Deep, hurt me, make me beg to stop,
I shall never succumb to pain,
For what I feel keeps me strong.

Break open my heart,
Shatter it to pieces, stand tall,
I'll still show you the light,
Show your reflection in each piece.

Leave me, make me cry,
I'll settle the dust on your road,
With every drop of tear, that I cry,
But I wont ask you to stop.

Ask me, how much I love, why,
I won't have the answers,
For I know what I know,
My silence explains all.

Walk away, Tell me your are gone,
Subject me to the loneliness' songs
You'll hear me, calling your name,
In ever breath and every word I take.
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When.
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Empty roads, long and winding,
Upon hills that shine in the moonlight,
I know the strength of Loneliness,
Endless,sad, but truthful.

As the moon hides,
Behind the cloud, to wink at me,
To lighten up, to console,
I fail to see, I fail to think.

Somewhere beyond those mountains
All those 23 miles, distant, unending.
To float endlessly, to wander,
My mind runs, away,but back yo you.

All around me the world slumbers,
This night, the stars,the moon,
The shooting stars, the universe,
I see your face, in every tear drop
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Redemption:
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The days that bring the clear clouds,
Of early rains on some june start,
Covering the stars, clouding the moon,
To make my vision darkness bound.

Of thoughtless deeds that I've done,
long ago when all was fun,
When time felt like a little furball,
Sometime ago, long.

I revisited each emotion,
Paid back in the same coins,
Ended up in love again,
Right back where I started from.
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Hope:
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A bird out at my window sill,
sat when it was dark,
To fly away into the morning sun,
Her wings just to park.

The night so still,
Pitch black, frightful,
Scared the little one,
Sought refuge on my window sill.

I opened the drapes to look at her,
and hung there for hours,
she looked at me with sweet eyes,
I just noticed, still.

The wind that night was at chill,
She shivered, but stood still,
I opened the window pane to let her in,
She perched still where she was.

Awaiting the morning sun,
To retreat into her routine life,
I still keep the pane open,
maybe she'll come back if not soon.

If hope was to be sold in shops,
I would be its industry,
For the lord filled up,
A heartful of hopes in me.
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Sarcasm
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The day brings to me a song,
of joy that I knew then,
when time was, when you were,
Now All that is left is me

Of my lonely existence, I question,
The one above who judges my ways,
I beg him to oversee all I do,
For it's human to err.

The smoke casts a shadow,
The lamp post where we used to meet,
You left long ago,
I await your return.

The nightfliers sing a symphony,
I am the conductor to them,
I watch the road, every passer by,
I know you wont arrive, I still wait.

My life has walked out on me,
I exist as a body that moves,
Meaningless and still existing,
I promised you I'll wait.
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Meaningless Existence
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On this lone winter night,
I feel your thoughts keep me warm,
Of gentle breeze in this unfriendly cold place
Of winter's wind and it's cold embrace

To touch every pore on my body,
To make me understand how I miss,
All that is now amiss
My life, my love and my past.

Somewhere distant you exist,
In your lover's arms keeping you warm
I exist knowing and feel the absence of you that brings pain
For maybe God forgot me somewhere down the line

I usher the lonely trees in the woods tonight,
My last night before I undertake a journey
To a land far away where I can watch over you
Forever, to catch you smile, smile with love

The gun in my hand gleams ,
Reflects the silver moon in its chrome,
I shall soon put this soul less existence to rest
My body, for it is tired existing

Living without you is a choice I had to make,
You made the choice and I acknowledged it,
I just wish to hear you once before I leave,
Before the lead bathes in my blood.
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Somewhere Somehow
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I watched a tear in your eyes,
I felt two roll down my cheek
To remind me of how it hurts,
when I hurt the ones I love
For the world seems a solemn place,
with out the ones I love
Dry, arid and deceitfully cold of hellfire.

I watched her walk away;
Felt my soul leave my body behind
For the one I love, those eyes,
I failed to stop a tear in them
Us and them they may say,
I’ll say you before me, omnipresent you always
For you hold me back in sanity,
In this abundance of life’s insanity

Of all that life has had to show,
It showed me a vision so sweet and serene,
To raise a storm of encumbered proportions,
Of my love towards all that you do to me,
I’ve been hurt and I’ve been lost
But not quite as I am in thoughts of you
So I await my hand outstretched,
Make my life complete and strong

I have been silly to not comprehend,
How much I can love, love you my dear
Some things that life brought in. with a storm
Sadness took away in a flash of lightening
I was blinded by that thunderbolt,
For you struck me where it hurts the most
Deep within my heart and soul
I long to hear your voice again

I could run away from myself once,
Fight my feelings that I have for you
I know I’ll lose and give into them for I love,
All that you do to hurt me to forget you,
I trust my soul in its rendition, the truth of what I feel
The truth of how I love you, and how much
For tomorrow you shall take on a new day,
Ignore all you feel I know you do for you are stronger.

I know though one thing for sure, that I will
For I know I cannot forget that I do,
I can never contemplate how much I feel
This love that that grows with each knife that you drive
Through this already knife riddled heart of mine
You are in every breath, every touch, every voice, every vision,
For you are all I think of..
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An ode to Sanity.
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The beautiful gerbera hung at dawn,
The rose thorns beside stay on,
A morbid pain that is strong,
Like a crab on the beach, life eludes me.

Of the things that I treasure the most,
I weep in pain for love that I solemnly sought,
To drown in tears, Tears of my own,
Tears of loving, Tears of absence.

What a joy to my heart brings,
Her voice to soothe the burning heart,
And she, far apart, 23 miles away,
Some distant far cry.

Often to leave me burning,
In angst of desire,
To make me wonder, How I love ,
To accept she shares not the same views.

A path of love that I chose,
I shall tell friends some evening,
Far away in the distant future,
Of why I still await her arrival.
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Moonlit Nights
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Flowery Dreams, dreamy days,
Of sunset walks and sandy bays,
Of wingless flight, moonlit nights,
And all things that are dreamt of, Far away

Beneath an oak, Tall, old but green,
A shade from the scorching noon,
I wish to lie down beneath your veil,
Shade me, from the turmoils of life.

Of lonely nights that keep me awake,
And sleep comming from exhaustion,
Of my soul, wondering about you,
Staring through the broken window panes.

Trees that shed, the winter brings,
An indication to let go of all that's past,
The tears that rejection brings us all,
Makes me love her all over again.

I cry, for my heart is misunderstood,
A love, a poem so untouched,
You remain unmoved, witness my deathwish,
Of living alone in this existance.

To reach out to those flying birds,
Flying back home to love and be,
I await on my rooftop,
To catch the moon this new moon night.
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Abrasions of the heart.
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The road that winds,
Along the river I've known forever,
When time was joy and sorrow unknown,
A past I've long forgotten.

Those trees seem to touch the breeze,
As it flows through,
Into my face the wind blows calm,
To rekindle the childish joys, long lost.

I ran along these roads once,
Played amongst these joyful greens,
Before I chose to love, like mortals do,
I can't turn back, I already chose.

The sandy road, The green rice fields,
The tender fragrance of the paddy growth,
The moon on this full moon night,
I wish to ask a walk with you.

I seldom say what I feel,
For we seldom disclose all we are,
I open up my heart to say,
But I find you forever unseen.

Tonight again the moon, the river has cast,
The palms swing in the midnight breeze,
I come to rest on the river bank,
To rest, to sleep, to dream of you.

Another day shall soon arise,
When I'll plead my love to you,
And you like forever I know,
Dismiss it as a passing phase.

I ask God to enlighten me,
To change me , to what I need to be,
For acceptance by the one I love,
For my life, For me to be.
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To vanish.
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A flame leapt ito the night,
Moonless and dark, cold and still,
From a lamp out of oil,
To burn out and darken the night again.

A thought crept into my heart,
A desire to be loved, to be longed for,
From the days of lonliness that I've known,
All my life, all along.

The eyes on my face wept,
For love unparalleled,
From a stranger I knew,
I knew, I chose, Ill lose, not hope though.

The clouds filled up the clear sky,
Outside my bedroom window,
Like a page lost in my old past,
I know the down pour brings joy many.

I'll still wait in the lounge,
Await your arrival day in and out,
From where you forever hide,
Deep in my heart and soul.

I'll forever wait.
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Sometime, Somewhere
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To love, like a forbidden fruit,
And caring a shade faded off,
On a dark Journey of chasms,
Of life,I undertook long ago

On earnest wings that I fly,
To catch your smile so far away,
Those 23 miles seem a pleasing walk,
wishing you let me start someday.

Beyond the skies, the stars play
A orchestration of all my happiness,
To make me long and understand,
Of life's folly and joyous ways.

Overlooking the crossroads of life,
I ponder on a thought to choose,
I know I'll love you forever,
I'll await when you could, someday.
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Of Life and All We Know.
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Lillies bloom on a joyous noon,far in the desert,
I must say it's queer for it is hot and dry,
Where have they found the courage, where water,
I wonder how they ever grew,
An honest mistake some might say,
When the lillies die and go away,
I shall not regret their blooming,
For they brought joy to my heart.
Somewhere where the winds are of snow,
Of gentle breeze and winter sun.
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All that touch my life
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Of Unseen lands, where I now roam,
Bitter and sweet the feelings I nurture,
Deep in my heart felt thoughts,
Of life and where it has brought me.

Shadows of the past,that glow,
Seldom but from time to time,
Of an obscure past, that haunt my memory,
I left them far behind, I've come a long way.

I relish the pain that made me strong,
I realize my journey has and shall be long,
I'll take the road that no one took,
I'll get there where I dream for.

For to dream in not a mortal's sin,
Of love, Life and thoughts that are within,
A mind as beautiful as of the one i know,
Of how I feel and how I grow.

A tree that shall fruit in the future,
I seek not that moment nor harbour such thoughts,
I know I have the right to love, whom I chose,
I have no right to influence thoughts.

Soon I may be gone, For good or the worst I'll never know
I would be somewhere, somewhere far from her,
I'll miss her, to love her all over again,
For she made me understand How much I can love.
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Life and a Magical Moment.
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The world is my stage,
I'm a comedian,
One who is made for a laugh,
People around are afraid.

To be an object to nature's folly,
To lose himself in the crowd,
To be the last one to walk
When it is dark and cold.

Like a lone heart he walks,
With tears in his eyes and the painted smile,
He knows what he has shall be forever gone,
He walks singing his own song.
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Absence of Voice
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I miss the tender grass,
besides the rocks where the fog rules,
I long to see the birds fly,
over the valley I once knew,
I wish to see the mountains,
covered in green and yellow,
I wish to be there wandering,
amongst the windng roads.
To witness,
The first few droplets of rain,
Glittering in the morning sun,
Of dew drops shimmering in the winters.
I yearn to see again all that happiness,
That I feel when I am there,
amongst the hills I knew were once my abode,
I wish to touch the earth,
with my hands cold and soothing,
I wish to see the clouds in the cloud formations,
I long sometimes to play around,
the roads I knew where silence lived,
I wish to take a walk,
Down memory lane once again.
I see you every where,
hear all you say,
I could wish you were mine,
But I know I am nowhere,
So I wish to God,
to call and take me away,
For when I am with him,
I could see you all the time.
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Empty Spaces
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It's morning, the sun low,
out to play, my heart longs,
For the day is clear from what it was,
last night when i was out in the woods.

The pond reflects the sky above,
deflects the light to my narrow stall,
I ponder, await, call out to you,
but you seem somewhere far.

23 miles of copper along,
i hope,carries to me your talk again,as it does,
for its been 5 hours since i heard you,
I wait, though I know it'll be forever long.

I wonder how the copper feels,
carrying to me your company on a call,
And the breeze that passes you by,
Must in happiness blow beside.

The light that shines on me,
wide awake,this early morning,
The lazy sunlight puts me back in bed,
I close my eyes to dream again.
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Shadow Black.
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The flame glistens,
Below the lamp black,
Soot accumulated since long,
How the coat has grown.Overtime, the oil that burns,
Turns, Burns, and deposits,
Like some of our memories,
That now are in the back of mind.The flame dances,
Ignited by a match,
To burn the wax, the smell,
To smell of burning wax.
I trip, I fall,
I lie, cheat, steal,
The memories accumulate,
Somewhere deep in my heart.
The flame runs out of fuel,
The light glows dull,
Burns brightest just before dying,
Pitch Black.
I play, a folly, nature says,
I grow sad,
In my pseudo happiness,
Shadows in the dark.
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The untitled Life
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Cold winds blow, over stormy seas,
To my life, what was and will be
A stranger to comfort, a vagabond,
A little closer to insanity from lonliness.

If you ever get the chance ask me,
Why do i ever feel so lonely,
You'll see me smile, I'll show you my scars,
And laugh them off without a care.

Out on this winter morning, so barren and frozen,
I sit facing the element of cold,
to know how much I can and How much I'd do
To realize how much I love you.

Sadness is what I breathe,
deep in my system it mixes in blood,
blood for tears in the sky as the sun sets in the horizon,
Like the skies don't want to let it go.

Take me away o overlord,
Or help me find all I those I love,
For I know what love is now,
Just tell them i'm missing them all.

Soon I shall part with her,
Hang her picture in the gallery of my heart,
A place where I keep and I've kept,
All those I loved and love till now
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A Misery called Life
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I wish I could feel alive again,
Feel those moments of sorrow,
when the ears that filled up my eyes,
washed away all the pain.

when a tender touch of her calling,
cast a speel on my ears,
somewhere amongst the mountains,
somewhere far far away,

The place I no longer visit,
For they bring me sadness,
sadness now stay forever,
for I have no tears left today,

Amongst the green hills,
I still sit,staring into the wide open,
somewhere you might be playing,
A song of my long gone yesterdays.

I wish I could stare once again,
Into those eyes, warm and deep,
For I still like to dream wide awake,
You know I would never change,

Each passing day now,
I take a step, trying to forget you,
I never could say I loved you,
That price i still am paying.
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Hard Sponges And Fragile Diamonds.
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Walk into my life once again,
Touch those windows before you leave,
I'll touch them when you are gone,
They'll remember your touch and tell me,

Drink from my tea cup,
I'll serve tea each time I feel alone,
I'll drink from your side as well,
It'll make me feel your presence,

Touch my plants, the ones I planted in my garden,
They are what I watch in the mornings first,
Play around them, They will play along,
When they sway in the breeze after
I'll think you are still playing amongst them.

Write your name next to mine,
On the lillies beside my window
It yearns for your gentle touch,
Touch it once before you leave,
It longs for a reason to bloom

Hold my hand before you go,
Let me look into your gentle eyes,
I'll need to look one last time,
My memories need to refreshed,
I need them atleast to survive.

Call my name one last time,
Fill my ears with your voice,
disturb the silence that has deafened me since long,
For I'll miss your calling.

The sun, the sea shore, the pond, the shadow,
The wind, the hills, the valleys,
The mist, the grass, the dewdrops on untouched leaves,
They all remind me of you ever since.
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A Poem
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Somewhere far across the savagery of loneliness
Deeply nested in my heart now as empty as the desert
I hear a song the I sang an eon ago
something that made me fall in love.

Thoughts that may never go, to leave me in sanity
For these thoughts are mine and i am habituated
The terminal feeling of loneliness that has been
a company all along this far.

I fear a change for I find
comfort in discomfort for i know its extent
I take a deep breath each time and sigh
Each time love passes me by.

All i know is all I've known
The madness of loving that made me pay
I smiled when I paid those dues last yuletide
For I lost all love when I lost my love.

I know I am a damned to a life of eternal lonliness
I still like a fool watch the roads I walked
Amongst the valleys and mountain side
For I still carry hope deep in my heart... somewhere
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Fairweather Flowers.
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I smell the sweet country side,
Whilst I wander the meadows,
The grass, fresh from the morning dew,
Sways bringing my memories to life

When I would run through the tall grasses,
I had her beside me, following,
I wished then as i wish now,
She stays on, through all times.

Why should I feel a tear roll,
Moist should become my eyes, tearful,
I knew dreams fade away at dawn,
Someday I shall realize the same.

The morning mist has faded down,
To reveal a land kissed by its presence,
I pick up a fairweather flower
Fresh, pretty like the girl I knew.
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