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Terminal velocity

Guyz and Gals who know me, here is a letter that someone wrote to me after she realized that i was too unromantic and insensitive.
I leave it for you to decide if she was correct.
All I want to say is if you judge me by my play of coy then i wont tell you the true self that i am.
Understanding and communication are two of my key areas, atleast that is what i have been respected till now for.

But hy tomato sent me this mail and I guess she was too correct in what I showed her. Well hey tomato, no mater what, I left not cos I was insensitive but cos I realized that I am too lethal to you, for you want a stage show and pomp, but I choose to be the silent flowing river.


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There is no reason why I should write to you anymore, nor is there any reason why you should receive and read anything from me..... But for the love I feel and the virtue of its truth and depth, I am here writing to you for the last time...

I wanted to give you all the love you deserved and more, to make you happier than you expected or wanted... but you just gave up and I think its happening for good... I mean if this relation is being more a burden then a source of joy, might as well cut it short than to get further involved and then quit at a later stage when it will be harder...

Hope your 'giving up' attitude does not rub off onto other areas of your life, cos at this rate, you're not gonna achieve anything, not even by 2009......

I am not wanting to put you down or discourage, just giving my perspective on this and since in all this dispute between us, you seem to have missed the point, am only looking to bring to your attention the real issue, so that perhaps you may want to improve on it and not lose the next time around... cos these are some basic things every woman would expect in a relationship...

I know noone can give you 'gyan' and if you've read this far, my guess is you may not continue reading it through... I will however, finish what I have started and therefore, will write on just so that even as we part, there is no room left for misunderstandings and doubts.

You think your inability to talk is the problem, you think I am expecting some sweet talks and yapping from you and that that will satisfy me, whereas am asking for 'communnication' - the two are poles apart!!

Is there anything apart from few msgs that you have done or said that really shows you love me? I mean, hey, you will say you don't need to 'prove' your love, but I say, you need to 'express' it in various ways, or else I will never know how and what you feel... sms/mails/cards/phone conversations/flowers/face-to-face/letters/in little things that you do/through the concern that you show/through the interest you display in the smallest things/by remembering to ask whether I did the tests (if phone not possible at least asking over sms for now and talk when phone conv possible) et al et al....... there is plethora of options, if you want to seek, to make someone feel special and loved!

But you only make sorry excuses for not doing any of it...... and the inconsistency of your excuses is not funny.... What am writing will perhaps put you on defense mode and you will perhaps not see any substance in my complaints, but ask aneeta and may be she will vouch for it...

Lets take the latest episode..... am sure you don't think you were wrong when you, despite the argument that preceded on the same point, didn't write ANYTHING for the 3 hrs that I was in the class. I mean how insensitive can one get. And like I said, I would totally understand if it were an isolated incident, but we've been having tiffs over the same issue since the beginning......

And to top it all, at 2145 after we've started a sms chat, you write 'let me know when you are done and free to talk'!!!!!!!! Asking that! when you are aware that after 2130 is out talk time, and when we had still not resolved the gap from our earlier conversation, I would imagine you to be impatiently waiting to talk and make peace.

But what I get on my 'lets call it quits' msg is 'do what u want, all I can do is love u...... mayb u better go you may find someone who would sweep you off your feet'...

I had said this earlier that if I wanted THAT I would have told you so and gone away quite earlier without you needing to tell me and wont have spent my resources over YOU! however, you only want to see and hear what you 'WANT TO', the rest is conveniently ignored. Well, there isn't much I can do when you are so weak and inclined to give up so easily.

...... and then you say you loved someone so desperately much that she left cos she got suffocated by your love..... wonder where that came from considering you say 'you just cannot express what you feel!'

And every time I have brought up any of these issues for discussion and resolution, you have either gone silent or turned defensive/aggressive or just given up....

Well, I guess 'giving up' does solve all issues, dun it?

So please take care of yourself and stay blessed
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My future
My Future

In Wait

Like freezing wisps,
The water sprays on my face,
As if those tear drops are trying to wash my face,
Splashing on the table,
As I watch waiting, hoping the wait is not in vain,
Watch your image in the smoke I spew,
Smiling, and each swirl pushing the knife of absence,
Deeper into my heart,
I hear you in my heart,
So close, but so far,
Burning me in flames of loneliness,
Separation of my strength, you,
Only a matter of 120 hours,
But like an eon passes,
Those 5 days in between,
I await your arrival at home,
I let a sigh escape,
In pain, in love, in craving.

Hi Javed,

Thank you for contacting Microsoft.

There a are a few procedures that we can follow.

Please read ramifications of uninstall of wife 1.0


Uninstalling wife 1.0
Procedures:
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1) Install gun 1.0 with bullets 6.0.
You can point the gun server to the required termination victim.
2) Install Rampuri chaaku 2.5
Occasionally this can be substituted with a kitchen knife 3.6
3) You can also run divorce 2.5 .
This is a complex procedure as it involves side processes like alimony 8.6 and child support 5.6.

Please let me know if these work for you

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And by the way NT who ever that is thank you for the insult.
All that you see her as my poem is all mine.
It is listed on a lot of pages.
The poems and songs i didn't write bear the writer's name.
SO if you need the source then this is the right place.
You may find my work on a few of my or my friend's blogs and on BPC and poetry sites.