Dancing in the winds

I looked at her,
dancing amongst the crowd,
I sat, lost in those eyes,
I saw myself looking at me through her eyes,
staring at me sitting there watching her dance,
I felt a smile, deep in my heart,
it was me, looking at her sitting,
two souls seeing each other,
as a reflection,
a projection of the exact thought,
harbored for an eon,
the final rendition,
lost in her...

absolute ˚

I recalled a day,
I smiled so much i shed tears,
I closed my eyes,
Saw my mother,
holding on to me, ill,
at the hospital,
I held the pail, while she threw up,
all that anasthesia, in her blood,
making her drowsy,
I held her hand,
she cried, told me 'sorry son',
about this mess that you are cleaning,
I held her, to my heart,
for that brief moment,
I realized how much I loved her,
and how much she loved me,
and I understood what love was,
and you just reminded me of it again,
by loving me,
my tears blur my vision,
when i remember you both love me,
a lame excuse of being human, I am,
I smile at god,
thank him,
for making me the luckiest in love.

All apologies

it would be a mistake,
i tender an apology,
i admit the inconsistency,
i bowed down to be taught,
my ego,
I, me and myself,
shattered by my love for you,
in shambles,
I am lost,
in you,
in your words,
laughter,
my thoughts,
love,
lust and singing,
swirling in dust,
and love demised,
in my heart,
i grow colder,
each second,
that passes,
each breath,
i take,
I lived in a surrender,
starting with my surrender to you,
But you couldn't love me,
I apologise,
i live in apologies now,
I left, you called,
I walked away,
For i wanted to leave,
before the coldness would take over,
and before my pain ceases to exist,
A tear drop,
in your name,
the last few before the warmth of me dies,
I wait, my sleep calls me,
Waiting....

More of me

Ritesh, you're a Heart-Strong Idealist!

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress
your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and
wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed
the line. There will be times when you sit back to hear
both sides of an argument, but people had better stay
out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.
But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a
cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being
understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so
invested in your ideas and interests that you can work
so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what
you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With
conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

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Test 2
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Ritesh, stop the press, you're a hardback!


You're a Hardcover! Your score shows how much you value
your privacy. Your emotions aren't in broad circulation
-- you prefer to keep them hidden on the shelf. Clearly,
there are many "chapters" of your life kept off-limits,
even from close friends. This strategy can keep you from
being hurt by others, but there's a negative aspect,
too. With less intimacy, you may feel that your personal
relationships are not terribly satisfying. It can be
rather difficult for some people to reveal themselves to
others, but perhaps you should choose a couple of
chapters that aren't too personal and try sharing them
with a close friend. Dust off that old volume and open
it up -- you may find that your friend responds in quite
a positive way.

Me a Scorpio ! Oh thanks for the info

Scorpio!
It's sooo you! The planets are very complex. Maybe your astrologer will disagree, and maybe a few tendencies will vary, but overall you're a SCORPIO. You're just like a water sign, which comes out in the way you're so in tune with your emotions and your intuitions. Your symbol is a scorpion, which represents your secretive nature and your ability to emit a powerful poison when vengeful. A bundle of contradictions, you have the ability to demonstrate both the best and worst qualities that characterise human nature. Generally, you are intense and passionate, yet stubborn and competitive. You use your intuition fearlessly, and you have a tendency to explore the nature of existence through the study of philosophy and religion. Although it is difficult for you to trust others, whenever you finally do, the result is deep and powerful. On the downside, however, you must work hard to suppress your jealousy. Your dedication, drive, and persistence will guarantee you success, and you are known and respected for your imagination and idealism.

Some famous Scorpios:



Prince Charles
Louise Redknapp
Julia Roberts
Leonardo di Caprio
Usher
Pablo Picasso


Take the test:

http://uk.tickle.com/test/astrologymakeover/start.html

My ink Blot test result

Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life – whether you are aware of it or not.
You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.
Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

three years later

I smiled,
Watched the sky, blinked like you,
For the child in me was freed,
One kept in the dark of my mind,
Lost in time,
But your eyes called it,
Held its hand and walked it into the light,
I turned around and saw me,
One that had matured,
Ignored smiling, Faked it,
But the heart hurt then,
You freed me from that hurt,
I thank you,
For you brought the joy back to my heart,
I smiled again,
And I called you,
I called you my child,
For you are my childhood,
And your life showed me,
My childhood exists as you,
Making me smile.

A Maple called Annie

I sat down to rest,
under the green of a maple,
it sheltered my heart,
gave me back the wings to fly,
I felt closer to heaven,
as if touched by an angel,
body and soul,
and down the line i forgot,
the tree needs watering too,
not just the words of love,
and autumn came,
the maple leaves gently touched me,
I forgot they were falling, dying,
I wished to hug the maple,
with my hands so tiny,
I felt ashamed,
my tears got in my way,
and my maple, my Annie,
just stood there,
in silence,
but i shall not wait until spring
and wont let the winter snow touch her,
if she would let me water,
and keep her warm, once,
not for anything in return,
but to pay her back the love,
in a way i could never express,
for i understand now,
and i won't fight the truth,
that she needs to know the love i have,
like maple trees need water.

Film

The picture,
on my wall, an old memory,
the walls of my mind,
painted in pink,
wallpapered with daisies,
and the image is so clear,
as if a film of the finest grain,
unwound, directly in the sun,
the negatives, overexposed,
turned into nothing,
but a sheet of celluloid,
I watch it rewind

Chotu

She sat there watching,
THe vibrant colours,
before her, vividly spread,
painted constantly,
smiled,
a sweet child,
In a blue denim,
she wore a pink tee,
turning around to smile,
to look at you with astonished eyes.
When you call out to her,
They would knock gently on her head,
I would pull her pony tail,
she would just smile,
a friend,
a rare woman,
you are,
and i can hear your tears roll,
each time you cry inside,
you are someone's world maybe ,
but a friend of mine.

My Passion>Our company

To Sireesha

This is dedicated to a name i know (Sireesha)
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like the warm whistle of leaves,
on some clouded noon,
silent and gentle,
like beautiful silk

your name, enchanting me,
like the woods, calling,
i don't know who,
but the soul floats, to the calling

Search

Find me, as you did,
again, now I’m lost in your thoughts,
then it was the world,
you could search,
anywhere is where you can see,
you shall not find me,
look into your eyes,
stare at them,
you will find me, a part of me,lost there,
search your heart, the rest exists there,

Bleed you

I burn,
in an endless flame,
of the flame of your love,
longing to touch you,
feel you in my arms,
but I refrain from touching you,
for I fear the desire chained in me,
like a demon, that could consume you,
and burn you in its fire,
for if i touch,
i shall bleed,
bleed you from every pore of me,
and the desire in me shall have no end,
and I shall be a slave to it,
for you are the woman I love..

Burning to ash

The desolate childish eyes seek an answer,
where it lost it’s childhood,
when I would roam the country side,
amidst the paddy, and the river running by,
I watched you, saw it in your eyes,
I tried to hide, not in fear,
Was shy, afraid of joy,
you walked by, i touched the air,
found the essence, the lost one of mine,
I stood there, smoked, shared two,
I spoke, not my heart, It longed to hear,
I had walked, in rage, against my helplessness,
to reach out to breathe the air you breathe in,
the cubicle, the one where you reside,
the alley where you walk,
I wish I could love and be,
but I know you cannot, for I’m a cinder,
burning to ash,
sooner, and you will know me no more,
but you burnt the fire back in me,
and I could write, write love,
the page is my heart, the words my voice,
you resurrected me, I’m now alive,
watching your smiles, make believe ones
plastic,
makes me happy though, for you try,
I know I’ll survive, silent and in the shadows,
of my burning desire for love, that I have,
and in the flame of your absence in my life.

Destined to solitude

I searched the depths of living,
found you,
lost in the shades of it,
stretched my hand,
you shied,maybe afraid,
I stood there in the rain,
washing my tears,
clouding my tears in the water that poured,
as if it never would stop,
when you turned your hand away,
i smiled,
held my ground,
waiting on the roads,
awaiting your return,
thought you set me adrift,
my hope held me,
tied me to your existence,
only to wait,
only to treasure the one sight of you,
when I met you, and parted,
never to be heard or seen again,
I cursed my destiny,
but it gave me your memory to live by.
I do..........

Again........

On a one way ticket I strode,
Down the road, away from love,
I heard a voice call,
Love, again, At least one more time,

It haunted,
Touched my wounds, healing in solitude,
To slit open my heart,
That timed stitched, ruthless,

So woman, so unlike a woman,
As if lost in a turmoil
Between yourself and you,
As if you wished, as though you couldn’t,
To rattle the pages of my past,
To make me read them over and again,

As if to make me shiver,
In fright, to paralyze the will,
To try to breathe,
Hope for one last breath.

Making me feel the edge of the blade,
Entering superficially, sliding,
Making me burn, with the intensity
Of a thousand lamps of love,
Only to blow it out,
With a single breath of yours
Darkness…………….
Surrounds me again…..

A Hopeful cynic

The grip of solitude,
Justified, malignant, overwhelming,
Cast on me, so spiteful, but homely,
Just to awe me,
Love rose on the horizon,
I knew it shall set, it did,
A cynic, they call me,
I choose not to argue,
For they shall know,
Soon, they shall see,
Wet their grounds with tears,
Of pain, of longing, belongings,
Shall be shattered,
On the rock of life,
Like some lone traveler,
Lost in a journey,
Seeking peace,
Thirsting for smiles,
I shall look back, wonder,
Why I cried,
When I’m laying on my back,
Witnessing the cover of my grave,
Only to be known, by my name,
With the fire of my angst,
Of the past,
On my tombstone please write,
‘I fought to win, I sought,
And I’m here, asleep,
Touch my tombstone,
Resurrect my soul,
Free me’.

Me @ Max

And to think  now my own face………Hah……

 

Professor Saab ab aap microsoft ke engineer ho, faculty dreams are dead long gone,,,,,,,,,

ME

I watched the world pass by,
I let go of all that hurt me deep,
with a bottle of my vodka so clear,
I sat like a monkey on the tree of life,
watched all those who were mine,
or so called themselves,
walk below,
those who never turned to look,
and when they did they howled ‘change’,
i blinked, tried, but a monkey couldn’t change,
I had hope that life shall be mine,
I was afraid to see it fade,
I painted the glory for me,
a pseudo happiness called my world,
where all was bright, and they looked up to me,
washed away by the waves of time,
relentless is the will of the demon inside,
I agreed, I fought,
the inevitable won, maybe I let it,
I stood alone,
like the last man standing,
a monkey could never change I guess,
never, I said, to my self.