Accented

In loneliness,
her thoughts keep me adrift,
on a sea of my longing for her touch,
I float,
endlessly,
far away from her realm,
by the ocean,
next to those rocks,
and rusting iron and concrete,
in time,
in a trance,
in longings,
lust,
in shambles,
broken,
in pain,
stilness

Oh well THat's attitude.
Who Else But Me

æ~~~~ mY mAiLs FoR hEr ~~~~æ

☺☻☺۩ ۞ ۞۩☺☻☺

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Waves lash against the shore of the eye,

over flow,

drop, called a tear,

of absence, from my arms,

of my wife,

my soul mate, my freedom,

my smile,my life,

reduced to static,

the distance, not much, but gravely far,

some 2700 seconds,

but seem like a lifetime,

and i live, ruled by it,

await her arrival,

each day,

each time she turns homeward,i cry,

seperated, by choice,

choices of someone else,

for others,

we await,

our union,

when i shall try to wake up,

find her resting her head on my heart,

asleep like a new born,

and i shall lay there,

watching her,

clinging to me,

like a mother and a child,

i await,

for her arrival.

Jesus What Hath Satan Sent From hell
Who Else But Me

Absolute ME
Who Else But Me

A thousand Pardons

Ask me my name,
i will deny,
decline,
debate why you want it,
never shall let you know who i am.

You shall ask me where i live,
I shall deny again,
I shall travel some wrong path,
mislead you.

You shall ask me to stand beside,
I shall ridicule you,
call you weak,
leave you.

When you shall be lost,
troubled beyond tolerance known to you,
and you wish to be watched over,
turn around, I'll be there watching.

loving you,
from a distance,
for I value you, treasure you,
but i fear of hurting you.

EMS 24/7.
My Future

me

who else but me................
Yikes.......................

Terminal velocity

Guyz and Gals who know me, here is a letter that someone wrote to me after she realized that i was too unromantic and insensitive.
I leave it for you to decide if she was correct.
All I want to say is if you judge me by my play of coy then i wont tell you the true self that i am.
Understanding and communication are two of my key areas, atleast that is what i have been respected till now for.

But hy tomato sent me this mail and I guess she was too correct in what I showed her. Well hey tomato, no mater what, I left not cos I was insensitive but cos I realized that I am too lethal to you, for you want a stage show and pomp, but I choose to be the silent flowing river.


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There is no reason why I should write to you anymore, nor is there any reason why you should receive and read anything from me..... But for the love I feel and the virtue of its truth and depth, I am here writing to you for the last time...

I wanted to give you all the love you deserved and more, to make you happier than you expected or wanted... but you just gave up and I think its happening for good... I mean if this relation is being more a burden then a source of joy, might as well cut it short than to get further involved and then quit at a later stage when it will be harder...

Hope your 'giving up' attitude does not rub off onto other areas of your life, cos at this rate, you're not gonna achieve anything, not even by 2009......

I am not wanting to put you down or discourage, just giving my perspective on this and since in all this dispute between us, you seem to have missed the point, am only looking to bring to your attention the real issue, so that perhaps you may want to improve on it and not lose the next time around... cos these are some basic things every woman would expect in a relationship...

I know noone can give you 'gyan' and if you've read this far, my guess is you may not continue reading it through... I will however, finish what I have started and therefore, will write on just so that even as we part, there is no room left for misunderstandings and doubts.

You think your inability to talk is the problem, you think I am expecting some sweet talks and yapping from you and that that will satisfy me, whereas am asking for 'communnication' - the two are poles apart!!

Is there anything apart from few msgs that you have done or said that really shows you love me? I mean, hey, you will say you don't need to 'prove' your love, but I say, you need to 'express' it in various ways, or else I will never know how and what you feel... sms/mails/cards/phone conversations/flowers/face-to-face/letters/in little things that you do/through the concern that you show/through the interest you display in the smallest things/by remembering to ask whether I did the tests (if phone not possible at least asking over sms for now and talk when phone conv possible) et al et al....... there is plethora of options, if you want to seek, to make someone feel special and loved!

But you only make sorry excuses for not doing any of it...... and the inconsistency of your excuses is not funny.... What am writing will perhaps put you on defense mode and you will perhaps not see any substance in my complaints, but ask aneeta and may be she will vouch for it...

Lets take the latest episode..... am sure you don't think you were wrong when you, despite the argument that preceded on the same point, didn't write ANYTHING for the 3 hrs that I was in the class. I mean how insensitive can one get. And like I said, I would totally understand if it were an isolated incident, but we've been having tiffs over the same issue since the beginning......

And to top it all, at 2145 after we've started a sms chat, you write 'let me know when you are done and free to talk'!!!!!!!! Asking that! when you are aware that after 2130 is out talk time, and when we had still not resolved the gap from our earlier conversation, I would imagine you to be impatiently waiting to talk and make peace.

But what I get on my 'lets call it quits' msg is 'do what u want, all I can do is love u...... mayb u better go you may find someone who would sweep you off your feet'...

I had said this earlier that if I wanted THAT I would have told you so and gone away quite earlier without you needing to tell me and wont have spent my resources over YOU! however, you only want to see and hear what you 'WANT TO', the rest is conveniently ignored. Well, there isn't much I can do when you are so weak and inclined to give up so easily.

...... and then you say you loved someone so desperately much that she left cos she got suffocated by your love..... wonder where that came from considering you say 'you just cannot express what you feel!'

And every time I have brought up any of these issues for discussion and resolution, you have either gone silent or turned defensive/aggressive or just given up....

Well, I guess 'giving up' does solve all issues, dun it?

So please take care of yourself and stay blessed
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My future
My Future

In Wait

Like freezing wisps,
The water sprays on my face,
As if those tear drops are trying to wash my face,
Splashing on the table,
As I watch waiting, hoping the wait is not in vain,
Watch your image in the smoke I spew,
Smiling, and each swirl pushing the knife of absence,
Deeper into my heart,
I hear you in my heart,
So close, but so far,
Burning me in flames of loneliness,
Separation of my strength, you,
Only a matter of 120 hours,
But like an eon passes,
Those 5 days in between,
I await your arrival at home,
I let a sigh escape,
In pain, in love, in craving.

Hi Javed,

Thank you for contacting Microsoft.

There a are a few procedures that we can follow.

Please read ramifications of uninstall of wife 1.0


Uninstalling wife 1.0
Procedures:
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1) Install gun 1.0 with bullets 6.0.
You can point the gun server to the required termination victim.
2) Install Rampuri chaaku 2.5
Occasionally this can be substituted with a kitchen knife 3.6
3) You can also run divorce 2.5 .
This is a complex procedure as it involves side processes like alimony 8.6 and child support 5.6.

Please let me know if these work for you

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And by the way NT who ever that is thank you for the insult.
All that you see her as my poem is all mine.
It is listed on a lot of pages.
The poems and songs i didn't write bear the writer's name.
SO if you need the source then this is the right place.
You may find my work on a few of my or my friend's blogs and on BPC and poetry sites.

Dancing in the winds

I looked at her,
dancing amongst the crowd,
I sat, lost in those eyes,
I saw myself looking at me through her eyes,
staring at me sitting there watching her dance,
I felt a smile, deep in my heart,
it was me, looking at her sitting,
two souls seeing each other,
as a reflection,
a projection of the exact thought,
harbored for an eon,
the final rendition,
lost in her...

absolute ˚

I recalled a day,
I smiled so much i shed tears,
I closed my eyes,
Saw my mother,
holding on to me, ill,
at the hospital,
I held the pail, while she threw up,
all that anasthesia, in her blood,
making her drowsy,
I held her hand,
she cried, told me 'sorry son',
about this mess that you are cleaning,
I held her, to my heart,
for that brief moment,
I realized how much I loved her,
and how much she loved me,
and I understood what love was,
and you just reminded me of it again,
by loving me,
my tears blur my vision,
when i remember you both love me,
a lame excuse of being human, I am,
I smile at god,
thank him,
for making me the luckiest in love.

All apologies

it would be a mistake,
i tender an apology,
i admit the inconsistency,
i bowed down to be taught,
my ego,
I, me and myself,
shattered by my love for you,
in shambles,
I am lost,
in you,
in your words,
laughter,
my thoughts,
love,
lust and singing,
swirling in dust,
and love demised,
in my heart,
i grow colder,
each second,
that passes,
each breath,
i take,
I lived in a surrender,
starting with my surrender to you,
But you couldn't love me,
I apologise,
i live in apologies now,
I left, you called,
I walked away,
For i wanted to leave,
before the coldness would take over,
and before my pain ceases to exist,
A tear drop,
in your name,
the last few before the warmth of me dies,
I wait, my sleep calls me,
Waiting....

More of me

Ritesh, you're a Heart-Strong Idealist!

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress
your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and
wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed
the line. There will be times when you sit back to hear
both sides of an argument, but people had better stay
out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.
But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a
cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being
understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so
invested in your ideas and interests that you can work
so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what
you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With
conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

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Test 2
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Ritesh, stop the press, you're a hardback!


You're a Hardcover! Your score shows how much you value
your privacy. Your emotions aren't in broad circulation
-- you prefer to keep them hidden on the shelf. Clearly,
there are many "chapters" of your life kept off-limits,
even from close friends. This strategy can keep you from
being hurt by others, but there's a negative aspect,
too. With less intimacy, you may feel that your personal
relationships are not terribly satisfying. It can be
rather difficult for some people to reveal themselves to
others, but perhaps you should choose a couple of
chapters that aren't too personal and try sharing them
with a close friend. Dust off that old volume and open
it up -- you may find that your friend responds in quite
a positive way.

Me a Scorpio ! Oh thanks for the info

Scorpio!
It's sooo you! The planets are very complex. Maybe your astrologer will disagree, and maybe a few tendencies will vary, but overall you're a SCORPIO. You're just like a water sign, which comes out in the way you're so in tune with your emotions and your intuitions. Your symbol is a scorpion, which represents your secretive nature and your ability to emit a powerful poison when vengeful. A bundle of contradictions, you have the ability to demonstrate both the best and worst qualities that characterise human nature. Generally, you are intense and passionate, yet stubborn and competitive. You use your intuition fearlessly, and you have a tendency to explore the nature of existence through the study of philosophy and religion. Although it is difficult for you to trust others, whenever you finally do, the result is deep and powerful. On the downside, however, you must work hard to suppress your jealousy. Your dedication, drive, and persistence will guarantee you success, and you are known and respected for your imagination and idealism.

Some famous Scorpios:



Prince Charles
Louise Redknapp
Julia Roberts
Leonardo di Caprio
Usher
Pablo Picasso


Take the test:

http://uk.tickle.com/test/astrologymakeover/start.html

My ink Blot test result

Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life – whether you are aware of it or not.
You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.
Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

three years later

I smiled,
Watched the sky, blinked like you,
For the child in me was freed,
One kept in the dark of my mind,
Lost in time,
But your eyes called it,
Held its hand and walked it into the light,
I turned around and saw me,
One that had matured,
Ignored smiling, Faked it,
But the heart hurt then,
You freed me from that hurt,
I thank you,
For you brought the joy back to my heart,
I smiled again,
And I called you,
I called you my child,
For you are my childhood,
And your life showed me,
My childhood exists as you,
Making me smile.

A Maple called Annie

I sat down to rest,
under the green of a maple,
it sheltered my heart,
gave me back the wings to fly,
I felt closer to heaven,
as if touched by an angel,
body and soul,
and down the line i forgot,
the tree needs watering too,
not just the words of love,
and autumn came,
the maple leaves gently touched me,
I forgot they were falling, dying,
I wished to hug the maple,
with my hands so tiny,
I felt ashamed,
my tears got in my way,
and my maple, my Annie,
just stood there,
in silence,
but i shall not wait until spring
and wont let the winter snow touch her,
if she would let me water,
and keep her warm, once,
not for anything in return,
but to pay her back the love,
in a way i could never express,
for i understand now,
and i won't fight the truth,
that she needs to know the love i have,
like maple trees need water.