A Salmon's life.

Unafraid, like a mind without one
Out of it, sensibly insane, mad they say
To counter the current, to flow upstream
The salmons do too, are they mad even

To look at life from the rooftop
Is it that I follow suit
Yours, your way, shall I not tingle my senses
In knowing the idiocracies of love

Shall I not drive a knife of pain through
My heart, soul and memories that I have
To turn back and returning, to love again
Like the new born salmons, retrning upstream

They swim up to spawn life, die in the act
Sacrifice, the true form of existence
Shall I not taste that aprodisiac
Intoxicate mself, to forget, to laugh like mad

You should try, swim upstream
With one, unforgiving as the salmon's waterfall
You'll know how, you'll know why
I know why now, now I know how, Now I know to love.

The wake up call

I watch out the heavens,
Shimmering at first light of the morning sun,
Bathed in the morning's mist,
Some thought, pretty, strong, unending loops,
To fight with the conscience deeply hid,
Beneath the play of folly, lost in love, torment,
Shadows of the past emerge, sublimely fortell,
Shout at length, only to disappear,
Counter the fight, they do counter it,
Of strength displayed, a false play,
Smiling, hiding the woes behind the veil of it,
Like a crooked byzantine game,
Played on self, like all life's play,
To lose, to win, to lose again,
Just to breathe easy, knowing I'm human,
I uncessantly walk on playing,
In some auburn eyes, in some pink skies,
Finding reasons, displaying sentiments,
Of all things, all in vain,
The magic around, grows on me,
Telling me to let go, I choose not to,
My mind, trapped like a rat, in strange,
Strangely in wonderland, high on a drug like feeling,
Joy they call it,Wake up and laugh, life calls me.

Old Patch

The pond full of pebbles
Cast by the shore visitors
The water shimmers, though choked,
The pond still bears its name,
Nothing can change its existence,
Like a big hole in the middle of the rice filelds,
All since I've known,
Nothing still has.
Seasons have come and go,
The cranes still flock their season,
Fish there though not much is left,
Thy still stop by in rememberance,
We don't bathe there any more,
The water is too less to swim they say,
I still frequent there,
To toss a pebble or two.

Tiger Tiger

Beside the stream if you sit, on some lonely road,
Untread by any soul since long,
undiscovered, like knowing the joys of pain,
When you realize how beautiful those small joys were,
Haunting me, waiting for me in the woods,
Like a man eater, a tiger, I say,
The thought pounces on me,
Rips me to shreds, eats my heart,
I am alive, profound pain, I cry,
wishing to be rid of it, wish to wake up,
The nightmare is my dream,
It hurts but sweetly so,
The yellow and black stripes glow,
In the sunny morning of my dreamland,
I feel the mystic eyes,they stare, make me conscious,
I wish to look away, I tremble at its glance,
I give in, give up, surrender,
It lets me escape, like sand through fingers held loose,
Of the pseudo self, imagination, matter over mind,
Without a cause, i am a rebel,
I know what to do, I still go on, follow suit,
Breaking free of all sanity, practicality,reality,
Into a frame, divided, dangerous,
My mind now dead from constant hurt,
I now am avictim of my own thought process,
It grows, she grows on me.

Impending

Inevitable doom,
I embrace you,
Open heart, whole heartedly,
Look into my eyes,
Melt me in your presence,
Tell me you are mine,
Make me fight you,
In every pore, every drop of blood,
Fight me for my life,
I won't come with you, I refuse,
I am stronger at heart I know,
I am on a drug I call life,
Protected by the shield of my will to live,
I'm not afraid of dying,
Nor am I in hatred of you,
I'll await your arrival when I call you,
Untill then.......

Fright

The nights are spent,
awake, not a single wink,
The eyelids never touch each other,
I lie down staring at you in the picture,
I fear of losing,
So i dare not to blink,
I long to hear you,
Cold and awake,
My heart longs to be pacified,
If your presence does it, god get it done,
If your angry words,then hurt me,
I long to be mesmerised by you,
As long as I breathe,
Stay, in my memories atleast.

Adrift

White, washes ashore on the yellow sand,
Makes it wet, as if to give life to it,
You drift into my day sometimes,
Just to remind me of my life,
With stars on a lonely night,
I sit beneath the sky counting them,
I Connect them writing your name,
That's all I have, your name,
That's etched into my soul,
Like a picture, a timeless moment,
I stare, I don't look anymore,lost,
Into the sunset, the birds fly,
I await for another day to come,
To know you,
To love you a little more,
I hold on to the shambles of my life,
In hopes of smiling, seeing you,
Smiling, erasing my tears,
Healing my emptiness,
Just by your existence,
In the frame of my life.

Awaiting Trial

Mournful sorrow,
We all have known,
Stillness,
The heart's gentle glow,
Of thoughts as alienated as water to the desert,
Dries away the tears of the lone mind,
Dead as a mind in coma,
Alive without a reason nor feelings,
To briefly disturb our mind,
Entrapped in a prison of our own,
Wailing to be rid of pains of belonging,
To evade the reasons of knowing,
Of meanings and meaninglessness of life,
Pains of remorse, some of justice,
Some of applied thought,
Some of strange hope,
Of someone,
Now a stranger,
Release me from the bonds of life,
They way you did from the bonds of felt,
I await trial, on your behalf,
Can't see you punished.

Awaiting Trial

Mournful sorrow, we all have known,
Stillness in the heart's gentle glow,
Of thoughts as alienated as water to the desert,
To dry away the tears of the lone mind.
Dead as a mind in coma,
Alive without a reason nor feelings,
To briefly disturb our


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Daybreak

Mornings,
Beautiful ones, they come and go,
Just like you,
To touch me like a moment of time,
Captured in my mind,Like celluloid,
I rewind and play, each of them,
Every time you walk away,
My heart knows no task,
It knows no smile,
Except you,
Enchant me with yor presence,
You are the epitome of my cravings,
Make me feel alive,
Make this life a living joy,
Hold me when I need to hold my own,
Sing with me when I need a song,
Let me look into your playful eyes,
Lose my senses in your childish joys,
And await your comming,
On the roads of my life.

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This is my Fate,
This is my song,
I sing it,
Without a purpose,
Without a rhyme,
When a time shall come,
To briefly disturb the silence,
Of what I want,
Of what I need,
I'll walk quietly along,
Ashes in the urn of the past for tears,
Bygones,
They stretch endlessly,
I wail,
Twist my self to unwind,
The path of love,
Broken too much to mend?
No I say to my heart,
Sadness keeps the joys apart,
Lead me my heart,
Keep me strong,
There is still one last storm left to go,
That's my breath,
We are in the eye of that storm,
The silence is deafning,
The eye of the storm is silent,
Let us just await,
Hear the death patrol,
Looming overhead,
So close but so far.
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Mournful sorrow, we all have known,
Stillness in the heart's gentle glow,
Of thoughts as alienated as water to the desert,
To dry away the tears of the lone mind.

Another crappy one

Waking up to hear the birds song
Wishful but still, alien to me as love to my heart
In a heartless surrounding, dry and arid
Somewhere , I lost meanings in life

I look up to the skies,
I walk beside her quietly along,
To catch a glimpse in her eyes,
Of love, maybe somewhere in her heart

Bitter, cold, her eyes speak of darkness,
Her words bleed my broken heart ,
I weep lost in shadows,
Her's and mine, somewhere in the past

Invisible, unknown to all the souls that know me,
I walk watching her smile,She hurts my hurt heart,
Makes me twist in agony, I yearn for the hurt,
Addicted, I long for her,more so

Mockery

Illicit morality, Haunting desire,
Of a caricature I call life,
Of tender touch of the fire within,
Burning within, boundlessly, unceasing,
To burn away an array of armies strong,
To evade the feelings of remorse,
I take my step on the road of love,
I touch the surface, It lets me go,
To shine like diamonds, on a moonlit night,
To frighten me, like the dry trees, haunting,
I lie down awake all night, Sleep doesn't come,
I await to close my eyes,
When the winds blow, "touch her like a feather", I say
When the sun shines, glow dull than her,
In her auburn eyes I lose my self,
Where my life reflects the living self,
Walk away, let me live in solitude,
I shall blame no one, this is my doing,
Walk straight faced, smile, don't cry,
A world your tears may wash away.
And when the darkness scares you, call out to me,
I'll pray the sun rises early in your world,
When you fear, my mind knows no comfort,
I've been, I shall be, I know,
I habituated my self to wait an eon long.

Questions

Knowing the reason for an arising thought,
To Forsake the bliss of ignorance,
Some eventful evenings, some mournful night,
Of Solitude, in solitary confinment of my mind,

Risen out of the falling ashes,
Feeling the fury of the fire within,
In my mind a question, Arises,
Answers itself, dies.

Realization of the lost labour of love,
Questions the mind, lost in a purple mist,
Like a drug in my vein,
I had lost control, in chaos.

Of the cravings that the mind had known,
I gave up one, My quest for joy,
I gave up, I lost, no remorse though,
My questions answered their own.

My anguish, I disallow the thoughts to conquer me,
When life left me, why I got lost,
Closer to hell, I rested my head,
I evaded sanity, I flew alone, into the sunset.

What the crap

Winds of the summer blew,
Made the earth dry, arid, and unforgiving,
The grass dry, waited to ignite,
A gravest picture ever seen.
The green gave away into the yellow,
All around me nature smelt of death in the air,
Of a dance with the grim reaper,
I dance along, enchanted in its symphony,
Without a thought of what life had to offer,
I fell out of the lucid dream,
For my soul pondered for a reason to exist,
I knew that life is short,
I knew it's worth living,
I gave the reaper a miss,
Worked my way into a smile,
I know the one smile that held me strong,
I owe that realization to you.

The Roads Of Lone

Touch my vision,
paint your self into my eyes,
Sight and perception and dreams
Redefine,
Hold them close and
Hold me comfort me,
Let me breathe through your hair,
Cut my bonds of knowing,
Make me forget,
The perils life offers,
The troubles that haunt,
The tenderness you offer,
Holds me back to living,
Hold me a moment longer before you go.

Reflect The Self

Under open skies,
where the clouds are pink,
Late some evening,
When I'm no where near,
Near me, nor you,
where ever they are,
I'll ponder how beautiful you are,
When the evening sun sets,
I reach out to feel its softness,
Like your voice, your ways, the stories you tell,
I write your name over the sun's face,
To reach out, to feel, to know love,
I have been in so, only with you,
I shall hold my ground when you are away,
I'll just see you in every sunset maybe.
Somewhere when I roam the country side.

Wherever I may roam.

Your absence, a swim in the Acheron,
Of wails and woes, of my heartfelt sorrow,
When the mind knows no control or sanity,
Diminishing the will to breathe,
For the air feels unbreathable,
Acrid, acid and too thick to inhale,
I gasp for air, I miss my strength,
I miss you, I long to hear your voice,
I don't want to wait in vain,
Holding on to the final rope of life,
Cuts my hand, but keeps me alive,
I long for life, I long to live,
I long to be loved, I long for you.

Turbulence

Strange is the life,
Stranger is the night,
Each moment I have,
I have to choose to breathe,
Of darkest winds and coldest waters,
I walk to tire,
Before I can sleep.
Journeys that I take,
Lost in transit,
Lost in thoughts,
Someone for desire to instill,
The mind loses it's balance,
Shakes itself often,
Often not,
Often to choose to stay ignorant.
To sum up all practicality,
I pick up and carry on,
Towards the light ,
A dying torch flame,
Somewhere far on the horizon,
Somewhere I know no one's smile.
When I see the mist at dawn,
I see the face of the one I smile seeing,
Joy of the eyeing moment,
Eyeing her smile,
Amidst my turbulence thoughts,
Thoughts of losing her,
Sooner than then.